Every year we make resolutions. Many people want to save money, quit smoking, get organized and (my favorite) lose weight. Most years, I make a resolution that focuses in on one particular action. This year, I decided that I would try something a little different. I decided to stop doing thing that make me feel bad about myself. Now, don’t get me wrong, I am not self-deprecating or have low self-esteem, I just know that I have a tendency to do somethings that, in hind sight, make me wish I had made better decisions. I will freely admit that I have thrown whole weekends away lounging, while my responsibilities pile up around me. I have come home from work on Monday, too “tired” and unmotivated to work out, only to meet the end of the week with not one workout under my belt. I have had too many glasses of wine and gossiped and eaten like a monster, only to wish I could turn back time and take it all back. Seriously, I could go on and on, but I think you get the point; somethings gotta change.
I have decided that I am going to make 2017 my year! How and I going to do it? Well, this year, I want to take responsibility and start being proactive rather than reactive. I want to look back and see progress instead of wishing I had made just the slightest effort. I want to feel good about my accomplishments. I want to be held accountable and I think I am going to use this blog to do it.
Writing has always been a way for me to make sense of things. Now, I am not a writer by any stretch of the imagination (and I apologize for the poor grammar and punctuation) but I have kept journals and they have been extremely helpful. Whether it’s to get through a rough time or make me reflect on my actions, I have found that I am able to see things more clearly when I write it down and revisit it later. It’s almost as if I am an outsider looking in on someone else’s life.
I hope that a year from now, I can look back on this blog and see my accomplishments and feel that I have made the effort. I hope to feel pride and purpose. It might not always be the most interesting blog, but I know that it will be real and honest. It’s my life and I am sharing it with you. I know there are many people out there just like me and I am hoping they can relate, maybe even feel a little inspired. If nothing else, it’s an outlet for me and maybe some light reading to help you get to sleep;)
Wish me luck, I am going to need it!